Thursday, 1 November 2012

Confession Time, and Probably Some Unpopular Opinions

I absolutely adore blogging. I love reading blogs, and feeling like I'm part of something. BUT you probably couldn't tell. I have some major self confidence issues when it comes to my own blog. I always want it to look perfect, each post, EVERY SINGLE WORD. I want it to be perfect. I would like to be perfect.

Photobucket I'd like to spin you some inspirational story about how I'm going to overcome my confidence issues and and do everything I want to do in life and make myself better and blah blah blah, like bloggers are supposed to. But let's be honest here, it really isn't that fucking easy

Chances are, I'll always struggle with self-confidence issues. I'll probably (for the rest of my whole goddamn life) wonder why I'm not perfect. Which really sucks! I guess I can make changes, I guess I can make myself post things, make myself do things I'm not comfortable with. I'm looking for myself somewhere. I know I'm only 20, and I've got a long way to go, but I also feel like I would really truly like to figure out wtf I'm doing with myself! 

So here's a little insight into my Seductive Mania. My name is Becky. I'm 20, I don't know what I'm doing. I love food, I love being creative, and I love working out. I go through phases, where I love music, or fashion, or crafts, or blogging, or working out, or whatever. But the one constant is cooking. Food is my life. 

My blog is supposed to be about me, but I'm scared of not fitting into the "blogging world".. does anyone else out there feel like their personality doesn't really fit into the rest of the world? I suppose that's what makes the best bloggers, they have their own personality. But I'm not sure if it's just me though, but ever blogger seems to be the same! No one swears, no one gets angry, no one shows anything else but the happy sunshine-y side of themselves. 


Seriously dude, this is real life. We don't live in a world where people shit rainbows. Yah, I have my excellent days where I'm on cloud 999, but I have my down in the dumps days too. So I guess I'm at the point in this post where I've come full circle and realized that this blog is mine. And people don't have to read it if they don't want to. Haters gonna hate! 

/end rant. 

Anyone that suffered through that whole thing, LOVE YOU BITCH.


  1. haha okay you need to head over to - I promise you will love her! She's Aussie like me but she does not hold ANYTHING back and she is freaking awesome. I'm scared and self-conscious about not fitting into the blogging world either, I feel like it's kind of hard because a lot of the bloggers I follow have kids. Kind of hard to relate when you don't have kids.

    For me, I guess I like to show the sunshine-y side of my life on my blog because I don't like to dwell on the shitty parts, I think I'd just rather focus on the good stuff and the stuff I should be grateful for. But I agree, the best bloggers are the ones who are real, and who write on their shit days and on their good days.

    Missed you in blog-land, I don't care if every post or picture isn't perfect! I like learning more about you and I don't expect you to be perfect. If you were perfect I probably wouldn't like you as much because you would be boring ;)

    1. She's hilarious! Follow :p

      I'm the same way, all of these amazing blog moms with amazing blog lives.. ahha. Or people with their own houses, but I guess we just have to play to our strengths, right?

      Don't get my wrong, I totally appreciate happy sunshiney bloggers, because really who wants to read about the bad times, but they do happen. and no one seems to want to be real and talk about them!

      I missed blog-land! I'm making my triumphant return! Time to catch up on lost blogs!

      And I'm glad you don't think I'm boring :p